Hello.
It's been awhile. Maybe the longest that I've gone between making posts. I'm making this one because a lot of readers have asked if I was okay (alive, semi-comatose, joined the French Foreign Legion or what have you). Neither have I been active on Facebook and that led to family insisting that I make some indication there that I was still among the living.
So many of you are asking how things are. And things have come to a point where I'm more than compelled to offer up an answer.
So here it is:
Things are not okay.
Some very bad things have happened in my life. If there is any aspect of it that can be named, chances are it has happened. Including some physical situations which are rather considerable. I have had to take time to address these.
So far as the book goes: it's on indefinite hiatus, for a few reasons. Among them, I have reached a place where I cannot write past a certain block and it requires some things falling into place to break through that. Things which, I doubt will ever happen. I can't see past it. I was able to surpass an earlier, similar block but this one has proven to be much worse. So for now, the book is stalled and I would give anything to get past that.
I don't know what else to say at this juncture, apart from asking that you keep me in your thoughts. I am past the point of being at the end of the rope. Thing are now at the shreds of the end of the rope. My own prayers haven't worked. Maybe those of others will.
Wishing you all well.
Mr. Knight: As a longtime reader of your blog, I want you to know I sincerely admire you for your courage and work in documenting your experience with mental illness. Believe me, you have given strength to others who suffer in a similar way. I hope and pray for you. I would not presume to ask you to finish the book--only you can make that choice. But I do urge you not to give up hope.
ReplyDeleteI am one of the ones who has been wondering where you are and worried about you. Though I don't know you well yet, I really admire you and like your writings. I'm so sorry that you are going through hard times, but please remember that God promises he will never leave or forsake us. I'm so thankful for the update. I know it's not much consolation, but I've prayed for you. Please don't hesitate if you would like to talk to someone anytime...I'm always only an email or tweet away :)
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