When I started "blogging for Lent" almost a month and a half ago, it came during a lesser moment for me. I had taken a serious blow. Depression was about to swallow me up again. I couldn't see any possibility of life taking a turn for the better. God? I could see Him working in the little things... but I confess to harboring doubt that He had heard my most desperate prayers to Him.
And now? Now...
I'm less than a week away from completing making one blog post each day during Lent this year. And in looking back since beginning this lil' endeavor... I do so able to honestly declare that I'm happier than I can remember being, in a very long time.
This is also the closest that I've been able to draw to God, in years. The past several robbed me of too much of my faith, than for me to be either used by Him or to be a witness of Him. Life's circumstances and tribulations took their toll. Made me too jaded. I like to think that God is repairing the damage. No, not "like to think": I know that He is. The Chris Knight who is writing these words tonight is not the same Chris Knight who started Lent with an open heart and an open mind. God has worked, not just during this period but across the span of my life, to bring me closer toward His plans for me. Maybe I had to go through the pain. It broke me, humbled me, tore me down so that God could make something better of it.
That's what I prefer to believe anyway.
This has been an enormously rewarding exercise. But it's not just the writing for this blog. There have been things "behind the scenes": people, experiences, time spent in prayer and devotion. Things I haven't documented. Things I may never write about but will forever remain dear and precious to me.
There's at least one of those that I hope I get to write about, and sooner than later.
But, we'll see ;-)
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